Hinting at past "traumatic events," she spoke with rock journalist Neil Strauss as part of his new book, titled Everyone Loves You When You Are Dead.
Gaga told him something "so terrible that she'd blocked it out," Strauss said, an event "so horrible that she didn't want it in her younger fans' heads."
While Gaga held back uncharacteristically because she felt this "would define her and that's all anyone would ask about," she did offer the following:
"All of the things I went through were on my own quest for an artistic journey to f**k myself up like Warhol and Bowie and Mick, and just go for it."
"All of the trauma I caused to myself, or was caused by people I met being outrageous and irresponsible," the "Born This Way" singer explained.
As for how the drug abuse of her early days still haunts her?
"Sometimes it freaks me out - or I should say petrifies me - when I think about laying in my apartment with bed bugs and roaches on the floor and mirrors with cocaine everywhere, and no will or interest in doing anything but making music and getting high."
"I've had such obstacles with drugs and rejection and people not believing in me. It's been a very long and continuous road that I love, but it's hard to just chalk it up to myself. I have to believe there's something greater than myself."
At least she's open about it, even if there are certain events she feels she must keep to herself. Even the Mother Monster has earned that right.
0 comments:
Post a Comment